Rating: PG13

Category: Kyle, K/T, ep. Reaction

Spoilers: "Heart of Mine"

Summary: Kyle has some questions for Tess.

Disclaimer: If owned Roswell, I would be much happier right now…

Did you know? Do you Tess?

Do you know that I finally found out what my power is? Did you know that I can dreamwalk? It's after-effects from Max healing me.

The first time I did it was on accident. I dreamwalked you without even meaning to. I couldn't sleep, and I picked up that pink hairbrush you always leave lying around all the time.

You were dreaming about Max. Except that you called him Zan. Which I think is an even stupider name than Max.

You loved him.

I could see it in your eyes. I have never seen you so happy as you were in that moment, Tess.

I felt sick to my stomach, which is a truly weird sensation when you're dreamwalking.

I wanted to be the one there with you.

The one kissing you.

The one who you looked at with total admiration and love.

Because I loved you. Because I still love you.

Did you know that I loved you?

Did I let it slip? Did I hold your hand too long when we were walking down the hall, or a hold a hug goodnight just a fraction too long? Did you see me look at you like you're the most precious treasure on Earth?

Because you are. You are.

I am so afraid of being alone.

I like sleeping on the couch better than sleeping in my room. If I sleep on the couch, I can hear Dad snoring, and you breathing. Proving that I'm not alone.

My mom left when I was young. I can barely remember her.

And for a long time, up until I was shot, Dad would go to work and leave me for hours, all alone.

You mean so much to me.

You are my best friend, Tess. And I've never had a best friend before. Nobody knows me like you do.

And I can't afford to lose you.

Because I wouldn't know what to do. I'd go crazy…I'd lose my mind…nothing means anything without you.

I wouldn't know what to do without smelling your perfume, or seeing your smile, or hearing your voice.

I don't want to find out.

I told you that I thought of you as a sister.

Could you tell I was lying?

You are like family to me…but more.

I can see myself being your family. I can see myself holding you, loving you, taking care of you for the rest of your life. I can see our family, kids that look just like you with the Valenti name. It's a dream to me, one that can't come true.

I gave you up.

Do you know why I'm caught in this constant battle with Max Evans?

Why does he need you?

I thought I loved Liz.

But the love I felt for her is nothing like the feelings I have for you. Nothing.

You make me feel whole.

You know me. You know what I read, what food I like, what size my underwear is (even though I could live without you knowing that).

But lately, you've been slipping away.

I know that you've been searching for the past. Searching for the one who will make you feel whole and happy.

I hoped that it could be me. But I guess it's Max.

But do you know, that no matter how hard I try, I can't change the fact that I'm in love with you?

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

It's a promise if you say it three times in a row. Did you know that?

Did you know that I feel sick when I think of you with anyone else?

Do you know that I would die to protect you?

Did you know, Tess?

Did you know?

And if you did, I've got a whole other bunch of questions to ask you.

Starting with why..and…HOW…did you know?

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