Disclaimer: Roswell and its characters are the property of Melinda Metz and Jason Katims. No infringement on their creative genius is intended.

Summary: While volunteering at the local teen hotline, Liz is faced with a difficult situation. Her resulting actions leaves her friends feeling confused and alarmed.

Category: Other

Author's Notes: The events in this fic occur over a period of several weeks, during the time between Balance and the next new episode. Feedback is much appreciated.

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TEENLINE - PART ONE

Liz was walking the school hallways, talking animatedly with her best friend Maria DeLuca, when Mrs. Brown approached her. “Liz, can I talk to you for just a moment?”

“Sure, Mrs. Brown.” Liz answered. She looked over at her blonde friend and said, “I’ll see you after school then Maria.” Maria continued to walk on, giving her friend an inquisitive look over her shoulder, obviously wondering what Mrs. Brown wanted to talk to Liz about.

Liz turned to Mrs. Brown, her curiosity aroused by this request from her former Health teacher. “Liz, let’s walk over to my office and talk there.” Mrs. Brown said as she began to walk down the hallway with Liz at her side.

While they walked, Liz saw Max, Isabel and Michael coming from the opposite direction. Her heart skipped a beat and her hands closed a little tighter on the books she was holding to her chest. Despite the fact that there was nothing going on between them now, Liz always reacted the same way when she saw Max. She couldn’t help it. No matter how hard she tried to resist the inclinations of her heart, the shy guy with the dark soulful eyes always seemed to draw her like a magnet. More now than ever, the conflict between the necessity of staying away and her urgent desire to remain close left her feeling helpless and confused. But Max had already resolved that problem. He decided to walk away from her, and all that was left for her was pain and regret. Averting her eyes, Liz quickly looked down at her feet. She wanted to avoid any possible eye contact with him before they passed each other. The pain was still too new, too raw.

A few steps later, Liz and Mrs. Brown had made their way to a familiar door and walked in.

As she looked around at Mrs. Brown’s office, Liz thought of how it hadn’t changed much from last year. It was still as warm and inviting as she remembered, a perfect reflection of the short, red headed woman who worked here. Liz saw how the gifts received from various students over the years were still proudly displayed as if they had been prestigious awards for teaching. In a way, those gifts were awards, she thought. They were given to a teacher who consistently reached out to her students, and who in turn was rewarded with their trust and respect.

“Have a seat, Liz.” Mrs. Brown motioned to one of the chairs in front of her desk. As Liz sat down she smiled at the fact that Mrs. Brown sat in the chair next to hers and not behind the desk. This was just one more of the many reasons why Mrs. Brown was such a rare and special teacher. She never looked down on the students, but rather, treated them as equals. A fleeting thought crossed Liz’s mind: I wish she taught more than just health so I could be in her class again.

“So how are things going for you, Liz? Are you enjoying your classes?” Mrs. Brown asked.

“Things are going well.” Liz replied. “My classes are fine. Beyond that, I’m just working for my dad at the Crashdown after school.”

“No boyfriend in the picture? I thought I heard that you and Kyle Valenti were going out.”

Liz shook her head. “Kyle and I did go out for a little while, but it didn’t work out. So, no boyfriend right now.”

“But you’ve got your eyes on someone, don’t you?” A mischievous twinkle shown in Mrs. Brown’s eyes. She may not be able to keep up with everything in her students’ lives, but she was positive there were more than a few guys who would like to date Liz Parker.

“Not really.” Liz looked down, pain clouding her usually bright eyes.

“Okay, Liz,” Mrs. Brown said softly. She could see the troubled reaction her question evoked and decided to move on to the reason why she approached Liz. “What I wanted to discuss with you was the TeenLine Center we have here at West Roswell High. I know you’ve probably seen the flyers about it up around the school.”

Liz nodded and waited for Mrs. Brown to continue.

“Well, as it is, we are quite understaffed at the Center and I am trying recruit some more students to volunteer a night or two and help man the phones. I was hoping you might be willing to be one of those volunteers Liz.

“Now, I realize the idea of spending your evenings listening to someone else’s problems may not sound appealing, but you’d be surprised how much good you can accomplish. Especially since most of the callers are more apt to listen to someone their own age rather than a teacher or a parent. And while many teens call about problems with their boyfriends or girlfriends, we also receive calls from teens who are extremely distraught and need sound guidance. From what I have come to know about you through our talks and having you as a student in my class, I have seen that you have a maturity beyond your age, and a unique sensitivity to what is going on with your peers. I think you would be perfect for this challenge.”

Mrs. Brown stopped speaking and looked at Liz expectantly.

“Mrs. Brown,” Liz started, “Most nights I am working at the Crashdown for my dad, and the nights I’m not working I am usually studying. I would certainly like to help, but I don’t know if I could fit it in my schedule.”

Although Mrs. Brown quickly hid the disappointment that showed on her face, Liz saw it, and it pained her. She quickly tried to think of a way she could move things around in her schedule to open up some evenings.

Mrs. Brown stood up from her chair and smiled at Liz. She walked behind her desk and started to write out a pass for Liz to return to class. “Liz, I don’t want to keep you from your classes any longer, but I want to thank you for at least listening to my proposal.”

Liz stood up as well, but now she had a solid plan brewing in her mind and a hopeful smile on her face. “Mrs. Brown? I’m sure I can talk with my dad and make some schedule changes. I can always switch one week night to a weekend. That would leave me with Tuesday and Friday nights open. Would that work?”

The smile that appeared on Mrs. Brown’s face was practically beaming. “That would be wonderful, Liz.”

“Um,” Liz hesitantly asked, “Do you know if I’ll have any time to study while I am there?”

“Yes, I think you’d have time to study there. The Center isn’t meant to be a social setting for those who answer the phones, so many of them bring their school books or other materials to read when things are quiet. Another bonus to volunteering that I know you will like, is that it looks good on a college application.”

Liz just laughed, her mood improving considerably from just moments before. “You are right about that one, Mrs. Brown. I should be able to clear the schedule changes with my dad tonight. That way, I can probably be there tomorrow.”

“Thank you, Liz. I will look forward to seeing you there. And, Liz,” Mrs. Brown added an afterthought “Something important for you to be aware of—while you can tell your friends that you are going to help out at the TeenLine Center, we don’t allow you to discuss the actual calls outside of the Center. We have to maintain the confidence of those who call us. Therefore, it is critical that the contents of any discussion you may have at the Center does not become school gossip. In fact, because most of those who call don’t want to be recognized,you’ll find out that many won’t give you their real name, even though they may realize who you are. Okay?”

“Got it, Mrs. Brown.”

Liz took the hall pass Mrs. Brown handed to her and walked out of the office. Well, she thought, this is going to be an interesting experience. It will take some well orchestrated juggling of my time, but I know I can handle it. I might even get a new perspective on things in my own life. Well, at least I won’t be answering calls from those who are 'not of this earth.' She smiled wryly at the thought. Maybe this is just what I need. I can completely absorb myself in this and not have to think about Max. The Center will give me the one place where I won’t have any memories of him, and where his presence won’t make it so hard for me to forget.

Liz sighed deeply and shook her head to clear her thoughts. She walked to class.

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That evening at the Crashdown, Liz was putting an order in to the kitchen when she saw Maria walk out from the back room. Her friend’s hands were behind her back, tying on her alien apron. Walking over to the drink machine, Liz began setting out four glasses when she heard a voice behind her.

“So?” Maria asked, “What did Mrs. Brown want?”

Liz glanced over at her friend between filling drinks. “She asked me to help out at the TeenLine Center.”

“What? You gotta be kidding, right? I mean, the whole student body thought that thing was a joke when they first announced it, remember? How could it even still be open?”

Liz just smiled at her friend’s disbelief. “I suppose that there are those who don’t think it is such a joke. Otherwise, Mrs. Brown wouldn’t have asked me to volunteer.”

“Well, are you going to?”

“Going to do what?” Liz and Maria both turned to see their friend Alex at the table closest to them. He was standing on his knees, facing the back of the booth, with his elbows propped on the back. He smiled broadly at them. “Good afternoon ladies. So, what were you two talking about? What are you going to do, Liz?”

“Hi, Alex.” Liz greeted him. She was starting to get used to his surprise appearances. “I was just telling Maria how Mrs. Brown asked me to be a volunteer at the TeenLine Center.”

“Whoa,” Alex’s jovial demeanor was infused with a little astonishment. “Isn’t the TeenLine like a big joke at the school?”

“That is exactly what I said,” Maria chimed in. “Anyway, how can you possibly fit that in when you work here after school?”

“I rarely work Friday nights anyway, and then I’ve traded shifts with Trish.” Liz started to fill her last glass with soda. “She’ll take my Tuesday nights and I’ll work Sunday morning. That way, I can volunteer and she can spend a weekend morning with her kids.” Putting the four filled glasses on a tray, Liz picked it up and walked from her friends to a table of customers. She didn’t want her friends questioning her about this. On the surface, she knew Mrs. Brown’s request gave her the perfect reason to volunteer. But since she realized she could use this work as a distraction, to escape from anything related to Max and all the feelings that came with that, her motivation to volunteer had completely changed.

“She’s giving up all possibility of Friday night partying to answer phones at the Teen Center?” Alex mused aloud. “Mental note to self, If Mrs. Brown suddenly needs to talk to me, walk, no, run away.”

“Whatever.” Maria was exasperated with her friend. But she couldn’t quite figure out why. Maybe it was because Liz’s volunteering would mean she would have to put up with Trish on Tuesday nights now. Or maybe it was because that meant she would have less time with her friend. But why should that matter? It wasn’t as if she didn’t see Liz every day, or at least talk to her on the phone all of the time. And it certainly wasn’t like it was out of character for Liz to decide to help out with the TeenLine. Liz was always willing to give of herself to help others. That was what made her such a wonderful friend, although they often considered each other more like sisters.

Maria shook herself out of her little reverie and noticed two customers walk through the doors. “Oh great.” She said, her voice thick with sarcasm. Reaching into the pocket of her apron, she pulled out a small vial of cedar oil. This should help calm me, she thought as she inhaled deeply of its fragrance.

Alex turned to see what Maria was looking at. Max Evans and Michael Guerin had just walked in and sat at a booth near the front window. “What?” He asked, “Not too excited to see some of your favorite 'Czechoslovakians'?”

Alex could never keep up with what was going on with his two friends. At least now that he was in on the big secret, it was a little easier. He realized the complexity of all of their situations. Especially when he saw Michael get sick and almost die. Part of him still couldn’t believe his part in the whole ordeal. But this constant pendulum of emotions from Liz and Maria—this on and off again stuff was getting to him. He could never predict what mood he’d find them in. And lately, he still found himself shut out in the cold. At least, he resolved to himself, he’d make sure things were definitely different for Isabel and him. Well, a guy can dream, right?

“Yeah, right. Like one of them doesn’t have the personality of a cockroach and the other does nothing but sit and moon over Liz.” Maria answered Alex as she returned the vial to her apron. “God, they just had to sit in my section. I really don’t want to have to deal with him today,” adding just under her breath, “The ungrateful jerk.” She looked over at Alex while she got out two glasses and began to fill them with Cherry Coke. “I gotta go. Talk to you later.” With that, she grabbed the two sodas and irritably walked toward the two customers in the front booth.

Alex looked around him and threw his hands up in the air. He exclaimed, “What, am I not a paying customer here?”, but no one was around to hear him. He turned around in the booth and slid down to sit at the table with a scowl on his face. Women, he thought surly.

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As she approached the door to the TeenLine Center, Liz found herself wondering what it was going to be like inside. How many other volunteers would there be? Would the phones be ringing nonstop or only occasionally? Would she be able to help those who called? Or, would this end up being a big joke like Maria and Alex said, and an even bigger waste of her time? She reached her hand out and grasped the door handle. “Well, here goes nothing,” she whispered. Liz opened the door and walked in.

It was actually quieter than she expected inside. She heard a phone ring, and the soft whisper of muted voices, but Liz couldn’t place where the noises were coming from. She noticed why. Each desk had a wooden partition around it like the study desks she had seen at the University Library. They must use these to provide some privacy between the volunteers and the calls they answered, Liz thought.

It was then she saw the familiar bob of flame-red hair. Mrs. Brown was leaning over a desk discussing something with one of the volunteers, smiling and nodding. She stood up to move toward another desk when she caught sight of Liz standing just inside the front door.

“Liz, you’re here!” Mrs. Brown approached Liz with a wide smile on her face. “I’m glad you made it.” The warm woman made a wide gesture with her arm as she looked about the room they stood in, “Was it what you expected, or not at all?”

Liz smiled. “I’m not quite sure what I expected, Mrs. Brown.” She paused and looked about her again. Against the wall opposite of her was a drink machine along side a vending machine. There were posters all over the walls. Some were photos with inspirational quotes, others gave guidelines to recognizing the danger signs of drug addiction, or suicide. Mixed in, here and there, were magazine clippings and ads. Overall, the Center had an inviting air to it. It was evident this was a place for teenagers to help other teens.

“Well, before we start you on answering the phones, there are a few things to go over, Liz. We’ll start with how things are set up here.” Mrs. Brown said. She motioned Liz to follow her, but they were interrupted by a phone ringing on the desk closest to the door. It wasn’t a small study desk like the others, but a larger one, an office desk. Liz watched as the teacher moved away from her side to answer the phone there. As she picked up the phone and began to speak into the receiver, Mrs. Brown held out a finger to Liz, asking her to hold on a minute.

As Liz waited for her teacher’s conversation to end, she heard a step behind her, and then a voice.

“Hi, Liz.”

Liz turned, shock visible on her face as she stood facing Kyle Valenti. He was the last person on earth she expected to see here.

“Um, Hi, Kyle. What are you doing here?” Liz asked hesitantly.

“Don’t look so surprised, Liz.” Kyle answered coldly. “Is it really so inconceivable that I would volunteer to help with the TeenLine?”

“Well, actually, yeah.” she replied, looking up at him, her eyes questioning, wondering. She was suddenly afraid that volunteering at the Center wasn’t such a good idea after all.

“You’re probably right.” Kyle admitted reluctantly, looking down at his feet for a moment. “It was my dad’s idea. He thought I could help out since Mrs. Brown was running short of volunteers.”

Liz looked sharply at Kyle. “Your dad? The sheriff is involved with the TeenLine?”

“Yeah. He checks in with Mrs. Brown every so often to see how things are going here.”

“Oh.” Liz didn’t know what else to say. An awkward silence ensued.

Suddenly, their attention was drawn to the sound of someone calling Kyle’s name. It was Mrs. Brown. One of her hands was covering the phone while the other held out a packet of papers. “Kyle,” Mrs. Brown whispered urgently, “Kyle, please take Liz to a desk and go over the introduction packet with her, okay? I’m going to be stuck on this call for awhile.”

Kyle took the papers from Mrs. Brown’s outstretched hand. With a quick “Follow me,” uttered over his shoulder, Kyle walked past Liz and into the clusters of desks. Liz followed him, taking in everything around her. She thought she recognized some of the volunteers as classmates, and occasionally she could discern a portion of a conversation. As she turned her head back to focus on where Kyle was going, she saw that he had stopped at a desk in the far corner of the room. He dropped the packet on the desk and grabbed an extra chair from nearby. Motioning Liz to sit down at the chair already facing the desk, Kyle sat down in the one he had grabbed, where he had positioned it, a little off to the side.

“So, anyway,” Kyle said in his usual gruff manner, “in this packet you’ll find a bunch of stuff that's supposed to be useful to you while you answer phones here. You know, articles on depression, peer pressure, stuff like that. There’s also a practice script in here. It’s supposed to show you what you can expect from a typical call and how you can respond. I don’t even know why they give this crap to us though. None of it sounds like anything I, or anyone I know, would say.”

Liz picked up the packet and began to read the practice script. She shook her head in disbelief. “They think we would actually say something like this?” She chuckled at the idea and then cleared her throat. Speaking in a fake voice, she began to read, “While it may seem implausible now, I’m positive the situation between you and your parents can be reconciled.” Liz stopped reading and put the script back down on the desk in front of her. “Who wrote this anyway? It’s ridiculous.”

Kyle’s demeanor seemed to thaw some. No matter how many bad feelings they had between them, he knew he’d always have a soft spot in his heart for Liz. His voice lost it’s harsh tone when he answered her. “Who knows? But if you answer someone’s question like that you can be sure they’ll hang up on you. The teens who call here are usually calling because they have nowhere else to turn to. The last thing they want to hear is someone patronizing them.”

Liz shook her head, her eyes wide. She didn’t know what to say. She felt like she was seeing a completely new side to Kyle. Something beyond the tough jock attitude he normally strutted around the school campus.

“But on the other hand, beware of crank callers,” Kyle warned her. “We get our fair share of them here.”

“You’re kidding, right?”

“Not even. You’ll see. Before you’ve answered phones here a week, you’ll get some dweeb calling asking if this is phone sex hotline. But I’ll give you a little tip on how to deal with those calls.” He smiled mischievously, his eyebrows raised. “Just tell them they got the number off by one. And then tell them they just need to dial 1 as the last digit instead.”

“And if they do? Where do they end up calling?” Liz’s curiosity was killing her.

“Let’s just say it is some place more appropriate for what they were calling for.” Kyle just chuckled. He’d let Liz call and find out for herself if she dared. “Anyway, you should go over that packet before you decide to answer any calls. When Mrs. Brown gets back here she may quiz you on it. I’m over here in the desk to your left” he motioned to a desk, “so if you need any help you can just poke your head over.”

Liz looked up at Kyle, and smiled at him with gratitude in her eyes. He was actually acting decent to her. She knew it had to be hard for him. So much had changed between them in so little time. They barely had five cordial words between them since she had broken up with Kyle. Especially since Kyle thought she broke up with him to go out with Max. In some respects, he was right.

Kyle hesitated before going to his desk. His mind was wandering in the same direction hers was. He was looking at her smile, the same smile that always melted his insides when she directed it his way. And some of the bitterness seeped back in as he remembered why it had been so long since he’d seen that smile.

“So, anyway, how come you’re giving up a Friday night to be here? Max too busy to go out tonight?” Kyle’s voice had turned bitter once more.

Liz winced at the mention of Max’s name. Maybe she’d been too quick to think Kyle had actually gotten over the pain of their break up. It was still too early, even if he had started to date again. Male egos could be so fragile. Liz reminded herself to be careful around Kyle. There was too much at stake. Too many lives involved.

Kyle noticed Liz wince. So, he thought, it was over already between them. Serves her right, after she dumped him for that Evans loser. But then something inside of him changed. He knew how hard it hit him when she said she didn’t want to be with him anymore—and while he was still angry about it, he still cared about her. And so he regretted saying something that caused her pain, even if she was with Evans.

“Hey, listen, I didn’t mean that, okay?” Kyle apologized. “Let’s just try and act normal here. Like we were before.”

Liz just looked down. “Kyle, I don’t know if that’s such a good idea.”

“Why not?” he asked. “You know, there used to be a time when we were actually comfortable around each other. When it wasn’t so hard for us to talk.”

“I know, Kyle, but a lot has changed since then.”

“What? Me? You? Can’t we at least try to be friends again? Or would it just be easier to not have anything to do with me anymore?”

Kyle was becoming defensive again. Liz could sense it in the tone of his voice. “It’s not that, Kyle,” she said. “Like I said before, everything is just really complicated right now.”

“Yeah, right. You’ve said that before.” Kyle started to turn away from her but stopped short. It would be so easy for him to walk away from her, like she had done to him. But then that would just take him farther away from what he wanted—and he wanted Liz back. Damn, he thought, just what was it that this girl had that got him so confused inside, got all his emotions all twisted up?

Kyle turned back to her and spoke again, his voice soft, almost pleading. “But what is so complicated about right here, right now? We were doing okay just a minute ago.”

He was right, Liz thought. At least while they were here at the Center he was right. There were no aliens, no F.B.I., no Sheriff Valenti looking for answers in this room. No Max, Isabel or Michael. There was just the two of them, and a bunch of students trying to help others. Maybe this was a good a place as any to rebuild some bridges. And maybe that would help things elsewhere. Maybe Kyle wouldn’t be so suspicious of Max and the others this way. But, Liz reminded herself again, she would never be able to let her guard down with Kyle. So for now, she’d just take it one step at a time.

Liz exhaled, and with it, Kyle saw some of the tension in her shoulders disappear. Then he saw her direct that same incredible smile at him again. He could see the sincerity of it reflected in her eyes and he recognized it for what it was. They had reached a truce. At least for now. And so Kyle Valenti just let himself bask in the thought that Liz Parker had graced him with that gorgeous smile twice in such a short period of time.

************

Where were they? She knew she had put those notes in her locker this morning when she got out her history book. Darn it, how could they have just disappeared? It wasn’t like she kept her locker a mess like Maria did. She was going to scream if she didn’t find them soon!

“Hey, Liz.” She turned to see Kyle leaning against the locker next to hers. “How did your Geometry test go?”

“I haven’t taken it yet.” Liz continued sorting through the books in her locker, a scowl on her face. “I don’t have Geometry until after lunch. And if I don’t find last week’s notes, which I put in here this morning, I doubt I’ll be doing very good on it. I was planning on some study time during lunch. Argghh!” She slammed the door of her locker shut, and looked over at Kyle who was laughing at her. “Don’t laugh at me. This isn’t funny.”

“Sure it is.” Kyle replied. “I mean, come on, Liz. You studied for that test all last night at the Center. You barely heard the phones ringing, you were concentrating so hard. And now you’re panicking because you can’t find the notes you probably already have memorized? Relax a little. You’ll do fine on the test. You always do.”

Liz sighed and knelt down to go through her backpack again. “That’s easy for you to say. You don’t know what Mr. Harold’s tests are like.”

“Liz, there you are.” Maria’s voice echoed in the hall. “I’ve been looking all over for you. Come on, Alex is waiting for us at our table and I’m starving.” Maria strode up to her friend. When it finally registered who was with Liz, she did a double take. “Hi, Kyle.” She said quizzically.

“Just a minute, Maria. I’m trying to find my Geometry notes.” Liz was shoving her English textbook back in her bag and pulling her history book out. She thumbed through the pages and some papers flew out. “That’s them!” She exclaimed, as she grabbed the notes and started to zip her backpack up . “Finally. I totally forgot I put them in there.” She stood up and faced Maria and Kyle, a triumphant smile on her face.

“Ready?” Her girlfriend asked.

“Yeah.” Liz turned toward Kyle. “Um, I’ve got to go. But I’ll see you later, okay?”

“Sure, no problem.” He said and then turned and walked away.

“That was really weird.” Maria commented as they started to walk away from the lockers toward the quad. “What did he want?”

“Nothing really. Just wanted to see how I was doing, I guess.” Liz tried to change the subject. “So, how did baby-sitting go last night?”

“Whoa, Liz. Come on here. Kyle Valenti’s suddenly talking to you again? What’s going on?” Maria wasn’t so easily distracted.

Liz didn’t want to get into a big discussion about this. Especially since they were approaching Alex, sitting at the table where they always ate lunch. “Nothing. I already said that, Maria. Anyway, how am I supposed to know what is going on in Kyle Valenti’s head?” Liz picked up her step. “Hey, Alex,” she said as she sat down.

“Did I just hear you say something about Kyle Valenti?” Alex immediately asked.

“Yeah, he was talking to Liz when I found her just now.” Maria answered. “And Liz’s totally clammed up on me about it.”

“I have not, Maria. I already told you all there is to say.” Liz turned to Alex. “He just wanted to say hi. That’s all.”

“Really?” Alex asked dubiously.

Maria snorted. “See, Alex doesn’t believe it either.”

“You guys, can we just change the subject? Please?” Liz prayed her friends would just let it drop.

“Fine.” Maria said snobbishly, obviously unhappy about it.

“Come on girls.” Alex said, feeling the need to diffuse the tension between them. “Let’s all play nice, okay?” Taking on a more serious tone he continued. “Hey, it isn’t that big of a deal anyway.”

“How can you say that?” Maria was incredulous. “We’re talking about Kyle. Remember, the sheriff’s son? The one who followed us to the hotel on the way to Marathon? The guy is totally suspicious of us and Liz doesn’t think it’s any big deal that he should decide to start talking to her again out of the blue.”

“Maria, you know that I would never do anything to ever put Max, Isabel or Michael in danger. You know that. Kyle was just saying hi. He asked me how I was doing in Geometry. That’s all.” Liz voice’s was pleading with Maria to believe her.

Maria looked at her dark haired friend, saw the earnest look in her face and relented. What was she thinking anyway? It was Liz. Her best friend since elementary school. The girl who would risk everything in order to keep them all safe. “I’m sorry, Liz. I guess I’ve just been on edge since everything that happened with Michael. The jerk hasn’t even said a word to me since.”

“It’s okay, Maria.” Liz said as she reached an arm around her friend and pulled her close. The two girls hugged, and Maria whispered in Liz’s ear. When the two came apart, they both turned to Alex with mischievous smiles on their faces.

“What? Why are you looking at me like that?” Alex suddenly felt paranoid. He watched like a deer frozen in the headlights as the two girls stood up and walked around the table to where he was sitting. Then, they both leaned over and hugged him.

“We didn’t want you to feel left out.” Maria said in his ear, half laughing.

“Exactly.” Liz said. Alex always tried to play the peacekeeper between the two girls whenever they got their feathers ruffled. It was rare when it happened, but he was born to play the diplomat.

“Girls, girls!” Alex pretended to object to the display of affection. “Remember my reputation here.” The girls disengaged their arms to end the group hug and sat back down. The three friends just sat and smiled at each other.

“Hey, Liz,” Alex said with his mouth half full with a turkey sandwich. “How’d things go with the TeenLine last week?”

“Oh my gosh, I totally forgot about that.” Maria exclaimed excitedly. “Come on, give us all the juicy details about the calls that came in!”

Liz just shook her head at her friends. “Sorry, can’t. TeenLine policy. Volunteers aren’t allowed to discuss any calls.”

“You’re kidding, right?” Disappointment was written all over Maria’s face. “You can’t tell us anything? Nothing at all?”

“Oh, come on, Maria. Do you really want to hear about all these people’s problems?” Alex interjected, gesturing widely with his arm. “Anyway, it’s not like we don’t see it as it happens, or don’t hear all the gossip. You know my personal philosophy. High school is just one big teen soap opera.”

“Yes, we both know about your theories on that one, Alex. And I suppose we do hear just about everything that is going on around this place,” Maria reluctantly agreed. “But I still think it sucks. Liz’s going to be there two nights a week and we can’t hear anything about it.”

“It really isn’t that exciting, Maria. In fact, I’ll probably just be doing a lot of studying there. At least, that was the impression I got Friday night. The phones were really quiet.”

“That’s because most teenagers, and I do stress the word most since it doesn’t seem to apply to the three of us, are out on dates or partying on Friday nights. God, I need to get a girlfriend. No, make that a life.” Alex took another bite of his sandwich still mumbling about something. Then he spoke up again. “So, that leaves you, DeLuca. Where were you on Friday night?”

Maria groaned and rolled her eyes. “Baby-sitting the Thompson terror.” She looked at Liz. “I could have really used your help, Liz. Micah was sooo hyper. He even ran into me when I was about to use my brand new vial of jasmine oil and it spilt all over the rug. It was a nightmare.”

Alex and Liz listened with rapt attention as their friend, often gesturing wildly, described her Friday night to them.

—————

Across the quad, Max was staring at the group of friends laughing at some story Maria was relating. His eyes were sad, tinged with jealousy.

“Still haven’t worked things out with Liz yet?” His sister asked.

He just shook his head. Max really didn’t want to get into it with Michael and Isabel right now. He remembered how Liz had avoided his eyes in the hall the other day. However, he knew he had done what was right. He couldn’t pretend that everything in his life was normal, because it wasn’t. The guilt over hurting Liz was eating him up inside, but he had to put Isabel and Michael first.

“Well, it’s not like any of us have really spoken to them since that night.” Isabel continued. Turning, she looked at the other teenage male sitting with them. “Have you, Michael? Talked to Maria, I mean?”

“Naw.” Michael replied with his usual apathetic attitude. He never let on what was going on inside of him. Too many foster homes had taught him to keep his emotions closed up inside. However, he still felt things deeply. Especially when it came to his feelings for a certain wacky blonde. He looked over at the table of friends sitting across the quad.

Isabel observed the two guys sitting with her. They were both lost in their own thoughts. Not much use trying to make conversation, she thought. Her eyes followed her brother’s gaze to the table of friends with whom they had shared their secret. That dream of Alex’s came to mind as she watched him. He was an interesting one. Sorta cute, but not the typical guy she was interested in. Yet, he had come through for all of them in the cave that night. There was definitely something special about Alex Whitman.

“Who has the tabasco sauce?” Max asked. Isabel reached in her purse to pull out the bottle she always kept with her and handed it to him.

Little more was said as they ate their lunch in silence, each observing the playful antics of their human friends from a distance.

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How long has it been, four, five weeks? It seemed longer than that. So much had happened since her first night here at the TeenLine Center. Her eyes roamed over the items on her desk. Like many of the other volunteers, Liz had brought in a few items to make the small space her own. She laughed to herself, remembering. It was the very same desk where she and Kyle had gone over the information packet her first night there.

Early on, Liz had found that she actually enjoyed volunteering, just as Mrs. Brown had told her. While she thought some of the calls she had taken over the weeks were absolutely ridiculous, she never let the caller know. Anyway, the majority of teens who called were faced with serious decisions and situations. They were just too afraid to admit their fears to someone they knew. Liz wondered at how some found it easier to tell complete strangers the complexities of their life rather than talk to those who knew them. At the same time, she recognized her own desire to keep others from realizing she might not be as strong as she pretended to be.

That was one of the beauties of volunteering. While Liz talked to those who called, she learned so much about herself. About her insecurities, her dreams, even about her strengths. It helped her get a better perspective on the things in her own life. Well, maybe it didn’t help with the whole I’m-in-love-with-an-alien thing, but it helped divert her attention from it. Actually, events at the Center had her so preoccupied lately that she found herself somewhat distracted at school.

Even tonight, Liz was having trouble concentrating on her English assignment: a thematic essay on Shakespeare’s King Lear. She already had her thesis statement and her outline to support it finished. However, she just couldn’t seem to find the right words to start the essay. Liz put the tip of her pen in her mouth, trying to focus.

Kyle Valenti’s head popped over the desk’s partition. “Liz,” he said, “Line 4. It’s Laura.”

During the weeks that Liz had been volunteering at the Center, she had developed a fragile bond with a frequent caller. She only hoped that Laura would trust her enough to get some help. That was her goal tonight: To get Laura to consider coming into the Center, or at least to go get some help from somewhere else.

She smiled as she looked up at him, “Thanks, Kyle.”

Over the weeks, she and Kyle's tentative truce had grown into a shy friendship. Every so often he would peak his head over the desk partition and see how she was doing with her calls. Or, if the phones were quiet, he’d find out what school subject she had decided to work on and ask if she’d like a study partner. Most of the time she declined, but a few nights she had relented and said okay. Usually, if while at the Center he learned she had a test coming up or a big assignment due, he would find her at school the next day and ask how she did. Those short conversations at school had raised more than just a little curiosity from Maria and Alex. Liz had managed to dodge their questions until now, but she didn’t know how long that was going to last. She didn’t want them to overreact over the fact that Kyle worked at the TeenLine as well. So far, she had managed to keep that piece of information to herself.

Picking up the phone Liz spoke the TeenLine greeting. “TeenLine. This is Liz. I’m here to listen.” It only took one time of accidently picking up the wrong line for her to learn to always answer with the standard greeting.

“Hi, Liz.” The voice on the phone was a tremulous whisper.

“Laura? Laura, are you okay?” Liz asked. She was answered with the sound of muffled crying. “It’s okay, Laura. Just let it out. Let yourself cry. I’m not going anywhere. Just let yourself feel whatever it is that’s going on. I promise you’ll feel better afterward. Probably not all better, but then we can talk and work things out. Okay?” She heard the girl on the other side of the phone take a ragged breath, and then start to cry long heaving sobs. Liz felt like her heart was going to break out of sympathy for her poor friend. She wondered what had happened. So much was already going on in this girl’s life.

After awhile, she heard Laura inhale deeply and the sounds quieted. “Laura? You going to be alright?”

“Yes," was the quiet reply.

“What’s happened, Laura? Why are you so upset?”

“I took your advice and told my dad what’s been going on.” Laura’s voice began to crack and Liz heard her start to cry again. Liz restrained herself from speaking and waited for the girl to continue. “He didn’t believe me, Liz. He didn’t believe me.” Laura managed to say between sobs. “He said I was just trying to cause trouble for him since I was angry mom left. I tried to convince him that I was telling the truth but he just...he just walked away. Oh Liz, what am I going to do?”

“Laura, it’s going to be alright. We’ll figure something out. I’m so sorry that your dad didn’t believe you. But I am so proud of you. What you did took a lot of courage. And that should tell you just how strong you can be—just how strong you are.”

“No, Liz. This just tells me that no one will believe me. If my dad doesn’t, no one will.”

“You’re wrong, Laura.” Liz objected. “I believe you. I know that you are telling me the truth. That is why it is important that we get you to someone who can really help you. Someone who can help you much better than I can. Laura, please, think about coming into the Center and meeting with me.”

“I can’t, Liz. I just can’t.” Panic rose in Laura’s voice as she protested. “You don’t even know my real name! How could I go in there, in front of a room full of people, and face them after everything that’s happened?”

Liz closed her eyes, trying to concentrate on what would be the right words to say. “Then we don’t have to meet at the Center. We can meet anywhere you want to, but we do have to tell someone in order to make this stop.”

“No Liz. I can’t.”

“Listen to me, Laura. It isn’t your fault. You haven’t done anything wrong. He is the one who betrayed your trust. He’s the one who’s the bad guy here. Don’t ever forget that.” As Liz pleaded with her, she silently prayed that Laura would reconsider coming in to meet her.

“I appreciate all your help, Liz. I really do. But I can’t go there and meet you. I’m sorry, I just can’t. Maybe...maybe I shouldn’t call anymore.”

Liz’s hand clutched the phone tightly, her knuckles turning white. She heard the resignation in her caller’s voice and it alarmed her. Even if Laura didn’t want to come in, she had to keep the connection between them. It was the only way Laura had any chance of getting help. With Laura’s mom gone and her dad constantly drunk, the only person she trusted now was Liz.

“What are you talking about? You can’t stop calling me.” Liz decided to switch tactics and change the direction of their conversation. “Who will I talk to on Tuesday and Friday nights? Don’t you realize how much I look forward to our little chats? Otherwise Mrs. Brown would probably find me asleep at my desk and kick me out. Then what would I have to show on my college application?”

Laura was taken off guard by Liz’s seemingly selfish comments and laughed. She saw through it and was grateful for what Liz was trying to do. “Okay. I won’t stop calling. I don’t want to jeopardize your collegiate career. But I do have to go now.”

“Okay, Laura. Just remember, I’m here for you, okay? And I’ll still be here no matter what.”

“Thanks, Liz. You’re a true friend. I’ve always thought so. Ever since grade school. I’ll talk to you later then. Bye.”

The phone in Liz’s hand went dead, and she slowly returned it to the handset. Laura’s words were echoing in her head. Since grade school. That meant Liz knew Laura. She remembered that when she originally started talking with Laura she thought she recognized the voice, but she'd just shaken it off. Now, she started to wrack her brain again, trying to figure out the face behind the voice. She probably shouldn’t, but she couldn’t help herself.

“Is she gonna come in?” Liz looked up and saw Kyle standing with his arm resting on the partition between their two desks. “Did you convince Laura to come in?” He asked again.

“No. She’s too scared. Plus, she’s just taken a pretty hard blow. She told her father and he didn’t believe her.” Liz sighed and pushed some of her hair behind an ear. She didn’t know what to do if Laura didn’t want to meet her.

“God, that must of been horrible. Do you think she’ll be willing to try to tell someone else?”

“Not for awhile. The problem is, Kyle, I don’t know what to do next. It isn’t going to be long before things get a lot worse for her.”

Kyle stepped around the partition and squatted down on his heels besides Liz’s chair. She turned in her seat to look at him. “Liz,” he said, “You can only do so much. A person has to make the decision to help themselves. You can’t let Laura’s problems overwhelm you and become your own.”

“Getting a little deep here, Kyle.” She cocked her head at him, viewing him curiously. “Have you been browsing the self-help section of the library lately?”

She was teasing him and he knew it. However, Kyle was becoming increasingly concerned that Liz would assume too much responsibility if she wasn’t able to succeed in helping Laura. “Liz, you know what I’m talking about.” He said seriously.

“I know, I know.” Liz responded. Kyle watched as she bit her lower lip nervously. “I just can’t help it. I want to help her so much. I don’t know what I would do if I found myself in her situation.”

“I don’t think that’s possible, Liz. You are too strong willed to ever let yourself feel defenseless. You’re a fighter.” Admiration poured from Kyle’s eyes as he spoke to her. Admiration, and a little something else too.

Liz didn’t try to identify what that extra something was. The truce she and Kyle had going was working well, and she didn’t want to burden it with unfounded suspicions. He couldn’t possibly still want more than just friendship.

“Thanks, Kyle. And thanks for helping me work through all this with Laura. Talking about it helps, you know?”

“That’s why TeenLine’s here, Liz. So teens can talk about stuff and try to work it out.”

She nodded and then looked back to the essay waiting for her on the desk. “Um, I gotta get back to working on this King Lear essay.”

“Sure.” With that, Kyle stood up and went back over to his side of the partition.

Liz turned in her chair and picked up her pen. Focus, she thought, and began to write.

(to be continued in Part II...)

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