Rating: PG

Category: M/L

Summary: Max writes Liz a letter telling her how he feels (sort of a song fic)

Spoilers: Minor spoilers for Destiny and parts of Season 2, mainly End of the World

Disclaimer: All the characters and ideas of Roswell belong to Jason Katims and the WB. The song “Yesterday’s Letter” belongs to 98 Degrees.

Author's Notes: I heard this song on the album Revelation by 98 Degrees and it made me think of Max and Liz. If you haven’t heard the song you might want to listen to it. It fits really well. This is one of my first fics, so I apologize in advance if it’s not very good.

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I wrote a letter yesterday
Just trying to explain
Couldn't find the words to say
Cause you are so far away, so far away...

Dear Liz,

I’m writing this letter to tell you all the things that I can’t bring myself to say to you face to face. What happened to us, Liz? I loved you so much and I thought you loved me too. Then Tess came along and you just left, just disappeared for the entire summer. I told you, baby, I don’t love her. I love YOU.

I wrote a letter yesterday
It's so hard for me to face
That it had to end this way
But my love will never change, will never change

When I search my soul to find the truth
About the love we shared
I wonder why you're no longer here...

God, Liz, I love you so much. I never stopped loving you, not for a minute. Tess knows that, I’ve told her, and I think she finally understands. I just wish you did. Why do you keep pushing me away? You say you have a reason, and that it’s important, but you won’t tell me what it is.

You can just walk away
But I don't feel the same
My heart still beats for you, breathes for you, sings for you
And those feelings will never fade
I can hide my pain
But, I can never hide the way I feel for you...

I think about you all the time, Lizzie, night and day. Everything I see reminds me of how happy we were together. Why does it have to end? I know I said that I couldn’t be with you knowing that you slept with Kyle, but I can’t help it, Liz, I love you.

I've been talking in my sleep
About the way it used to be
Girl, I pray that you’ll hear me
And then I'll see you in my dreams
Oh, in my dreams

But I can't forget the words you said
To move on with my life
And no matter what I'll carry you inside...

I don’t care about anything that happened in the past. I don’t care about my destiny. I only care about you, Liz. I want us to be together no matter what. Whatever the reason is that you think we can’t be together, nothing could possibly be so important that it would stop us from being together when we love each other this much.

Sooner or later you’re gonna realize
That this type of love happens once in your life
So open your eyes girl
And see what we could be
Come back to me...

I know you still love me, Liz, I can see it in your eyes. Please don’t deny me the one true love of my life. You are my destiny. I love you, baby.

Max

Max slowly folded the letter and placed it in a envelope. Even though it was raining outside, he walked all the way to the Crashdown, not thinking of anything but her. He climbed the ladder up to Liz’s roof and peeked inside her bedroom window. She was lying in her bed, asleep. He glanced at his watch. It was 2:00 in the morning. He had been up writing the letter since 9 that evening.

Not wanting to wake her, Max silently placed the letter, along with a single white rose, on her window sill. He stared at her for a moment more before descending the ladder and going home to fight another sleepless night filled with thoughts of the girl he loved. What Max didn’t know, however, was that, had he looked more closely, he would have seen tears slipping down Liz’s cheeks as she whispered his name into the darkness.

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